Okay. Time to be thankful for something. Anything. Because right now I am very distressed and disturbed.
And let the peace of God rule in your hearts, to the which also ye are called in one body; and be ye thankful. ~Colossians 3:15
Someone (or more than one someone) that I have trusted has been hurting me and my family. I do not yet know who, but I should know soon. Even though I have been trying to solve this mystery for over a year, I am hesitant to have the answer revealed. To know with certainty that someone whom I have called friend has betrayed me... Well, it is painful beyond description.
And ye shall be betrayed both by parents, and brethren, and kinsfolks, and friends; and [some] of you shall they cause to be put to death. ~Luke 21:16
I have gone through this hurt before. But just because it is nothing new doesn't mean that it doesn't hurt the same. Worse, even, because this time the person(s) involved
knows that I've been hurt before. Maybe I'm too trusting of people; I probably am. But what kind of life is it, to shut yourself off completely from the world, never trusting anyone? Not much of a life, which is why once I'm done licking my wounds I quit secluding myself, and I venture forth once again to see if maybe
this time I can live life unscathed.
Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? ~Romans 8:35
Will I be able to forgive? I really don't know. I will certainly never forget.
Oh, I'm not God, I'm a girl
I confess that I don't have sea of forgetfulness
~Sara Groves, from All Right Here
But back to the beginning... for what can I be thankful in this situation? While I certainly am not thankful
for the situation, there is still plenty in my life for which I can give thanks to God. I know that in spite of this circumstance, I still do have true friends. Real friends, that you can trust completely with your heart, are rare indeed, and you should count yourself blessed even if you have only one; I know I have more.
My truest friend on this earth is also the man I am proud to call my husband. He loves me more than life itself, and is fiercely protective of me. He has stood by my side, holding me and comforting me, through all the pain and suffering that we have endured. I don't even like to think about what my life would be without him.
He is my husband, to have and to hold from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish; from this day forward until death do us part.
